Jeffrey At The Drive-In
with At The Drive-In
Murder City Devils
Sunshine
@ Sapphire - Orlando, FL
Saturday October 14, 2000.

The following story really happened.

Preface: I have been an At The Drive-In fan since I saw them play in Orlando a year and a half ago when they were touring with Jimmy Eat World. I have their records and I listen to them all the time.

I had the idea that it would be fun to get all dressed up vintage-style (70's) and go to a show, this being the At The Drive-In show. I also thought it would be cool if we wore afro wigs. I asked my friends and some other At The Drive-In fans if they wanted to join me. I thought it would be a creative way to show the band appreciation, not to mention having a little silly fun. Wouldn't it be cool for the band to see a couple of dorks down in front jumping and singing along to their music?

When the day of the show came around about four of us did it. Though only myself and John wore afro wigs. My outfit consisted of black shoes, socks and slacks. I wore a vintage black sportcoat with a 70's shirt. My favorite shirt, at that. It's silver with a 70's looking pattern with a really big collar. Around my waist was an all silver metal belt with the coolest belt buckle. Believe me, I looked good. I also wore red heart-shaped shades. It was for the love I wanted to spread. We walked up to the club together and stood outside for a while then went inside. Our friends thought it was silly. It was a nice reaction.

Later, as we all were standing around talking, I felt a tug on my wig from behind me. I turned around expecting it to be one of my friends sneaking up behind me. It wasn't. It was Cedric, singer for At The Drive-In. I said "Hi. Nice to meet you". He says, "Do you think that's funny? It's STUPID."

Whoa.

I was rendered speechless. This was not a reaction I ever expected.

I don't know if anyone reads the ATDI webpage. I do. There's a quote on the biography page that says: "Cedric and Omar are still the non-stop jokers, always keeping everyone laughing, and two of the most trusting, sincere guys you could know."

I knew this beforehand. I've read enough interviews with him to believe that statement. I asked why he would be upset. He went into this tirade about how he gets beat up back home (Texas) for looking the way he does (Cedric and Omar, one of the guitar players, both have afros). He goes on how he "does 'this' for a living" ("This" meaning having his hair the way he does.). He kept getting more and more hostile accusing me of "ridiculing him and his culture" and that I was trying to "assimilate to it".

Whoa.

All I could say was that's not what we were doing. I was confused by this reaction. I never saw it coming. Racist? Wow, what an accusation. I guess our intentions didn't matter to Cedric. He continued spewing bullshit and at last he threatend me. He said "If you continue wearing that (the afro wig) there WILL BE A PROBLEM". He then ripped off my wig and glasses, flung them into the air and walked away.

Whoa!

What do you do or say to that?

We all looked at each other, almost afraid to talk giving each other the "did that just happen?" look.

Of course, Cedric was totally out of line. Did we "cross a line" like he accused? Does wearing an afro wig make someone a racist? Of course not! I could see why he could be offending or mocking. The whole matter could be cleared up with a simple conversation. Like I said, I told the man what we were doing and what we were not doing and why. That's all I can do. If he believes me he believes me. If he doesn't, well, I can't be held responsible for that. I know better than to argue with someone who shows themselves as being closed-minded or judgmental even when they have facts. And especially when he had bodyguards watching the scene from a short distance.

The incident pretty much ruined the rest of the show. Yeah, we did stick around. I'm sure some people would have left if something like that happened. If you read my zine or on the jeffreylist you know I like the band and I'd been looking forward to seeing them for weeks. I couldn't just leave. I couldn't. I love music.

Sunshine played but I was too shaken to really pay attention. I really was looking forward to seeing The Murder City Devils. They were great and put on a rocking show. They had candles lit all over the stage. The drummer even set the drums on fire. I could feel the heat. I just wish I could have been in a better mood. I would like the opportunity to see them again.

Oh yeah, then At The Drive-In played. They made no mention of the incident from the stage. I was sure going to rail them if they did. I was pretty mad. It would have been foolish for them to anyway. I wouldn't want them to appear to be hypocrites in front of their fans. With the incident set aside, their show wasn't up to par to previous years. Their intensity was lacking. I had heard the same thing about the current tour from friends around the country. It showed in the crowds reaction as well. It's too bad. They can put on an amazing show. Cedric did some cool things like putting drumsticks in his mouth, wriggling them around inside. Then he would get on all fours, lifting a microphone off the ground with his mouth. How..... cultural? Would that be the right word to use? Ask Cedric?

 

A couple of days later, Johnny wrote about the incident on ATDIs web board. A rather large discussion ensued, even members of the band jumped in. My favorite quotes were:

"Wearing afros to the show? Not my thing really, but i think its a creative way to show appreciation. To be misinterpreted as racist of all things is not something you could have possibly seen coming, so i can definitely understand why you are kinda hurt/shocked. I don't think I would have hung around after going through that......I just hope that Cedric realizes that he made a mistake, or if he still feels that way, that he can justify why he acted like that. "

"i don't think it was so cool if he seriously intimidated you by alluding to the bouncer kicking your ass..... i also don't see any issues with him simply not being "down" with kids coming to the show with afro wigs acting like his hairstyle was some important aspect of the band."

"If they wore afro wigs to have fun, whatever, to each his own."

"wearing afro wigs to ATDI gigs is definitely not cool"

"i just think it's fruity ...it's like going to the exorcist and dressing up as a priest."

"It seems to me like the band are trying to construct a new culture and attitude within themselves and their fans which I think will result in some extreme events such as this one."

"getting dressed up to go to a show like that is something i myself could imagine doing. surely this could have been seen by cedric as a kind of tribute. after all, why would someone spend their hard-earned money on going to a show to take the piss out of a band they clearly love?"

"I guess it sucks most that he didn't ask nicely. I'm sure you would have obliged a simple "Please take them off......."."


A friend of the band, playing spin doctor, talked to Cedric (this is edited) and posted:

"here's the deal. talked to cedric. Florida has always been a place where the guys have had more incidents then any other state as far as their ethnic backgrounds are concerned. cedric felt you were making fun of them for their hair, not in jest - but in ridicule. he says the doorman asked you, the soundman asked you, then he asked you to remove the wigs, and you guys refused. he said you were dressed up in 70's garb (when has any member of the band worn ties?). he felt you were being racist. he claims to have talked to you calmly at first, then when you guys began giggling it set him off..... if all you truly wanted to do was have some fun, but it didn't come across that innocently..... maybe they would have been a little less reactive in another part of the country, but feel you crossed a line."

Jeffrey says: This response is just flat out WRONG. I can't believe this is what Cedric would say what happened. Someone tell me this is not what he said! Please? I don't want to believe this. NO ONE asked us to remove anything at any time - NOT EVEN Cedric, he gave his speech then ripped it off. NO ONE giggled at him. He was hostile from first word. Now, I think he is a bigger asshole. The only part that is true is that he noticed that we were wearing 70's garb. Well, duh, we weren't dressing like ATDI. I said that already.

More quotes:

"and as for the morons wearing the afros... haha i wish i had been there. i mean i'm sure everyone was laughing at you. AT you... not with you. how stupid can you be. i'm glad you didnt get kicked out of the show. the embarrassment should be enough punishment."

"look at this situation and laugh. i know it sucked for those guys and all and im glad i didn't have that whack-ass idea, but damn! it's funny as hell."


Tony Hajjar, At The Drive-In member, gives his version (edited):

"i was there for the whole incident and yes it probably went a bit crazy, but you need to realize that this is all we know and you people are all we have, so when we see something that mocks individual personalities in the band then yes we are going to react...we are human and sometimes don't make the right decisions.. i'm not saying that cedric was right or wrong, but i will tell you something, you will never know what it is like to be omar and cedric everyday..you were mocking them and you got me mad also... remember no one in the band wears '70's style big collared shirts and halloween is on the 31st of this month...

when cedric was saying all that stuff to you guys and he glanced at the " 6'6" security guard," well that was derek from the murder city devils and i was standing right next to him..the last thing we'd every do was commit an act of violence because somebody was wearing a fro wig and some bad clothing..

lastly, thank you for staying at the show and singing along, that was really big of you, i personally don't know if i would of left or not......i want to thank you for singing and enjoying it.

well that's it.
tonyhajjar
at the drive-in"

Jeffrey says: This is a bit wrong, too. Don't tell me I was mocking them when I wasn't. Did Cedric not tell you I said we were not mocking him? I said that because that was never our intention. You can disagree all you want but it won't change the fact we wanted to just have a fun time and we had no intention of offending anyone.

More quotes (are you tired of this yet, too???):

"when punk bands started wearing mohawks, did the kids follow? yes, as a tribute.... ATDI, be prepared, there are more afros or "mefros" going your way, and its not gonna stop! (real or fake).. and don't be so touchy."

"you're gonna find more "Johnny's" doing this at shows. Especially when they start playing bigger venues. When that happens, they're not gonna be able to tell each person to take it off. What are they gonna do? Not
perform?"

 

In closing, I want to quote Cedric. He said from the stage "It's not about the shoes you wear, or your hair - it's about the music".

LINKS:

There's a rather large discussion about the At The Drive-In controversy on the Grand Royal web board. My friend John, who also was dressed up wrote the first entry. More from the Grand Royal web board. And more from Orlando scene page on Tourdates.com. After I posted this there's been a lot of talk about it (for example). I'm not going to bother to link or keep up with it all cos I'm pretty much done with the topic. Some peeps get so serious. I mean, don't peeps have better things to do than worry about? Well, as long as you made it this far I wrote a brief opinion on 'Relationship of Command' in the record reviews section. Enjoy!

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